Resurrection
Erm... yeah. I'm finally blogging again. I'm trying to resurrect this blog again (no assurances that I'll update frequently though!).
I've been having the worst writer's block possible. Yeah I know it's lasted for over a year, what am I expected to do when I just can't get inspiration?
Today was to have been a very special day for me, had everything gone on its usual course in my life. But it turned out to be a really black day instead. So my writing is going to be uninspired and stilted. I don't really care, my readership's down anyway.
Actually, I'm blogging only 'cause I have two important things to say.
First. I'm very blessed to have Xiaowan and Jessie as friends. Thanks guys, for all you've done and all you're doing. I love you both lots. I know I've been a disappointment so far but you know, I really need you guys to bring me through this. It's tough, and it's painful. I need you both. Thank you for everything, really. So many times you could have given up on me but you didn't. So now it's my turn to give up on what I was supposed to.
Second thing. To you, if you ever read this: I loved you, so very very much. You hurt me as much in return. You gave me that call on 27th May. I loved you still and forgave you. You lied to me from then till 25th July when I found the new phone. I loved you still and forgave you again. You used me throughout the whole of August, and I continued loving you up till and after our confrontation on the 4th of September. One day later, on the 5th of September, you threw me away like a dirty rag and showed me you didn't care a jot for the deep, devoted love that I gave to you from the bottom of my heart and my very soul, for 7 whole years.
To this, I tell you: YOU DISGUST ME.
I've been having the worst writer's block possible. Yeah I know it's lasted for over a year, what am I expected to do when I just can't get inspiration?
Today was to have been a very special day for me, had everything gone on its usual course in my life. But it turned out to be a really black day instead. So my writing is going to be uninspired and stilted. I don't really care, my readership's down anyway.
Actually, I'm blogging only 'cause I have two important things to say.
First. I'm very blessed to have Xiaowan and Jessie as friends. Thanks guys, for all you've done and all you're doing. I love you both lots. I know I've been a disappointment so far but you know, I really need you guys to bring me through this. It's tough, and it's painful. I need you both. Thank you for everything, really. So many times you could have given up on me but you didn't. So now it's my turn to give up on what I was supposed to.
Second thing. To you, if you ever read this: I loved you, so very very much. You hurt me as much in return. You gave me that call on 27th May. I loved you still and forgave you. You lied to me from then till 25th July when I found the new phone. I loved you still and forgave you again. You used me throughout the whole of August, and I continued loving you up till and after our confrontation on the 4th of September. One day later, on the 5th of September, you threw me away like a dirty rag and showed me you didn't care a jot for the deep, devoted love that I gave to you from the bottom of my heart and my very soul, for 7 whole years.
To this, I tell you: YOU DISGUST ME.
posted by Sheena @ 12:02 AM
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